37 weeks is the next goal.
I'm almost there.
as the days are ticking by my fear and anxiety is rising.
I am scared every single day that he has died inside me.
We 12 days away from his birthday and I just don't want to lose him now... we have come so far... we are so close.
It's all just so far out of my control.... just like it was with Truman.... just like it will continue to be if he is born alive... i can only do what i can do to the best of my ability.
If i make it til the end of the week it will mean that I will have myself a TERM baby. and the thought of that literally blows my mind.
So much for reading all of those preemie books just in case as a refresher- so much for pulling out Truman's tiny preemie clothes thinking maybe his brother would need them. Nope.
These two children are so different. and I love everything about both of them and all of their differences.
my two precious lion cubs. Who would have every thought.
I've been re-assessing my need to blog lately.
There is a lot of things going on in my mind and heart constantly.
I used this outlet for the past 2 years and it has helped me to heal.
But at this point i just feel like I kind of want to keep my beautiful life private and.... I just feel like shutting up.
I'm not sure if this feeling will last or if it's temporary.
But either way I'd like to thank you guys for reading and being a part of my circle here in the blog world.
I've made a lot of amazing connections through this blog.... blog friends have turned into really life friends and I'm truly grateful for my community.
I will obviously update when Remy arrival news but I'm not sure how much more after that. xo
